She refuses to let go, even after a decade.

Although this is a dating blog, I want to share an e-mail I received from my ex last night. We met on a dating network so I want to share how intense relationships can grow out of a dating site.

We have not spoken in over a decade since we broke up....no smiles passed, no messages. I felt strange 'cause knowing her it was hard to believe she didn't turn back to whisper her disgust she felt the way I left her. I was young, but that is no excuse. I broke her heart knowing that she will never be the same person again. It was comforting to know she had not tried to keep any ties. She's over me? I used to ask myself every now and then remembering the moments of love and lust we shared.

Apparently, I was wrong. She never did let go. Here is what she wrote:

"Hi again,

I could feel the raindrops on my face, the mixture of a tearless cry and the bitter smile. The feeling was so peculiar I can't definitely fathom its point of entry. It all started one starry night when I heard nothing but the "lub- dup" rhythm of the normal QRS complex. It was so euphoric, too good to be true. I even thought it was just a wonderful dream that I didn't have any desire to wake up from forever.

The cells in my brain are definitely in a serialize state. It's firing aimlessly to the unfamiliar image that my occipital lobe painted. My killer cells autoimmunity heightened to " red alert" . I felt lost in the felicity of the events. All of my wiser components were destroyed by the " bug virus" that trespassed over my completely balance being. The feeling simply pulled me down to the depth of the vast ocean. I couldn't breath, I couldn't think…I was simply drowned and I allowed myself to be carried away in the current.

I didn't even consider the validity of the words you said. It's impossible to witness the moment when all stars will become a black hole. It  would definitely happen, yet surely not in our  lifetime. I simply have faith in you.

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The world transformed into a rainbow of colors. I have found the paradise of the Earth. Everything is almost perfect, not until the time when you became invisible. I just wish that my vision was lost; that's why I could not see you, yet as I look in the starry sky I could clearly see the twinkling stars. The cool wind blow the fragrant, flower smell and I saw the shadow of the falling leaves by the moonlight. I waited for your image to appear for almost a decade, yet you never showed up. Where are the golden words? They simply vanished.

As I woke up in the world of the dead, my scarf dropped  near a golden tomb.  I took a second glance to the picture above it and I was shocked! I blinked for a second, closed my eyelids and tried to fool my brain, yet it was really the smiling face of you that I saw when I got my eye's cones function back.

I wish I could just lose my consciousness and return to the fantasy- like world, but the truth sets in and I just dropped to my knee and cried. How did you allow the promise to be broken? I want to blame you, blow your engraved name out from the stone, however I  couldn't escape from the truth of the lies—you did not wait for the black hole to come. How could I blame you if I don't even have the control for such things?  If I could just stop the cardiac cells from dying I would definitely have done so, yet when the heart cells rest…they do so forever.

I could feel the tiny raindrops in my face , taste the salty tear mixed with it. I just realized how the shower of lies taste like. Painful as it is, yet for the second chance I will do the same thing. Allowing myself to be exposed to the shower of lies if it means  I could hear you again…make the oath of the stars becoming black hole and not letting your heart in a state of asytole.

Cumulonimbus clouds wrapped the sky , though tomorrow I might see the starry skies again. Will I see a black hole? Maybe amidst the shower of lies.

Awaiting your call,

xxxxxxxx"

Her words have ripped me apart and I officially hate myself!

The growing dating searches: South East Asian girls

Recently I have noticed that the trend for dating South Asian Women and going to countries such as Philippines and Vietnam to find brides is growing in American and British males. Lets look in to the reasons behind this growing phenomenon.

They like to go to online dating service to find for true love. Young people in the South East Asian countries such as Philippines (remember, Katoto is a street slang for a 'close friend' in Tagalog dialect there which 75% of the Filipinas speak) go to clubs for fun. Regarding the relationship and marriage, they register their personal ads at online dating sites to find long-term partners. The main reason may be the choice of thousands of single men available online; they may find the very best. To find a Filipino woman, then you should visit the Philippines dating sites to find her.

South East Asian women for marriage are beautiful, charming, sexy and traditional. When you go to dinner in the city of Manila for example, you can view thousands of beautiful and sexy Asian women walking or riding a motorcycle. The weather is warm there, so they look too hot in their summer clothes. Many Western men are attracted to these beauties; there are many relationships and marriage between a Asian woman and foreign man in those days. To date or marry a woman in South East Asia, you need to know a few things. An Asian girl pays most attention to the human behavior. She judges a man by his heart, but not material. In other words, if you bring your stuff to show off to your Asian lady, you can't get her heart.

Women in Philippines, Vietnam, Cambodia, Thailand, Malaysia, Indonesia and Bhutan are different from Western women. To capture a south East Asian bride, you should take good care of her. She thinks that if you take good care of her, then it shows that you love and care for her. Women in Manila for example, usually live with their parents until they get married. They don't move to live according to the woman from the West. Most Asian are trained to care for households that they are very good. Asian women are very family oriented. When dating or marrying a girl in South East Asia, you should know these things. A marriage is a lifetime commitment between a woman and a man so people in Philippines and all the neighboring countries like Vietnam etc take it seriously. They think about it carefully before they get married with each other.

Filipino women for dating register their profiles and even post their photos online to search partners. The process of finding a woman in the South East asia is easy and simple. Your computer is a great tool to find your beautiful bride. You don't go anywhere to find her because she is directly in front of a computer screen. Looking for a girl in Philippines saves you time and money because the comfort that you can find her on the Internet. If you try to have sex with her on the first date, then you will not get her heart. Most Filipino women don't date men who are only interested in sex with them. To win her heart permanently, you should show your behavior to her. You should show her that she is the one you have.